So, macam kes aku ni, aku memang berazam untuk mensetelkan Ph.D aku dalam masa 3 tahun. Sekarang ni dah lebih kurang 1 tahun dan 10 bulan aku buat Ph.D. Tu lah, pejam celik, pejam celik, dah dekat nak 2 tahun. Itu bermakna aku ada masa lebih kurang 1 tahun lebih sikit je untuk completekan Ph.D. Tu lah yang aku duk pikir sedalam-dalamnya hari ini.

Lampu Merah – Lampu Warning Ultraman dah berkelip-kelip!!!

Aku cukup suspen, cuak, gelabah dan agak tension juga dengan situasi dan status perkembangan Ph.D aku ni. Ada banyak lagi kerja yang aku kena buat dan ini bermakna aku kena lebih extra super fokus. Aku dah kena kurangkan aktiviti online aku ni. Walaupun aktiviti blogging aku ni hanya aku buat pada waktu luar pejabat (iaitu di rumah), tetapi aku rasa aku still kena luangkan masa lagi untuk studies aku ni di rumah. Sebelum ni, bila balik rumah je aku memang langsung tak pikir pasal pelajaran aku. Aku cuma pikirkan bisnes online dan blogging je.

So, la ni nak tak nak aku kena limitkan masa online aku di rumah. Aku ingat maybe aku hanya boleh luangkan masa dalam 1 jam 30 minit ke 2 jam sehari untuk urusan blogging / online. Selebihnya, aku kena spend untuk lepak bermesra dengan anak isteri serta tengok TV dan yang paling important pikirkan / kerjakan Ph.D aku. So, mungkin blogging / online activities aku akan terbantut jap lah. Time terbantut ni lah aku kena harapkan adsense, TLA, TNX, Linkworth aku supaya tetap berjalan seperti biasa. Kalau ada rezeki advertiser email aku dan nak beriklan dengan aku, aku ok je asalkan offer nya setimpal.

So, untuk blog-blog aku yang ada 30 lebih tu, maybe aku terpaksa tinggal-tinggalkan dulu lah….atau kalau sempat, aku sub-con kan (upah) pada sesapa untuk uruskan. Aku ingat aku mungkin boleh spend masa fokus pada 2-3 blog je.

Apa aku kena buat?

Sebagai pelajar Ph.D, aku kena sumbangkan ilmu baru kepada dunia ni berdasarkan kepakaran aku dalam bidang Catalysis Engineering / Reaction Engineering. Dari itu, aku kena lah:

1) Tulis teknikal paper dan terbitkan dalam journal-journal yang ada impact factor. Contoh publisher adalah Elsevier, Springer Link, ACS dan lain-lain (At least ada 3 paper time graduate). Ada satu paper dah terbit dalam Journal of Applied Science tapi takde impact factor (Scopus listed je).

2) Tulis teknikal paper dan persembahkan di conference. Ada dalam 3 technical paper dah di publish dan dipersembahkan.

3) Register patent. Ini penting untuk novelti research aku. Tapi aku pun tengah blank memikirkan novelti aku ni…uh…

4) Masuk pertandingan dan persembahkan research aku… Ini tak penting sangat time ni. Kira kalau ada masa, ok lah. Kalau menang, dapat award, kira baguslah untuk CV dan Ph.D serta career aku.

Tu je kot updates aku for now. Kalau aku rajin, dan kalau korang rajin mendengar bebelan aku, stick around ok. Salam…aku nak solat Isya’ jap, then nak baca buku Thermodynamic untuk pahamkan camna nak buat Thermodynamic Feasibility untuk reaction process aku…Fuh!!!

Pastu, harap aku dapat siap on time, dan awarded dengan sijil Ph.D. YES!!! Aku boleh!!!

Doakan kejayaan aku ye…Thanks… Aku pun doakan juga kejayaan korang dalam apa jua bidang…

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Today, I just want to share some impressive story about my other half. We have been married for slightly more than 9 years and blessed with 3 beautiful kids. She started to work as a tutor in August or September 1999 in a local public university in south of peninsular Malaysia. After completing her masters degree in 2002, she became a lecturer. End of 2005, she pursued her Ph.D studies. Originally she planned to study abroad. We preferred to go to UK. But then we were not allowed because she has performed her first degree in UK. Hence, we selected New Zealand as an alternative. However, while planning all these, she got pregnant of Alya, our third child. Because of that, we collectively decided to just continue her study in Malaysia. At the same time, I can continue to work as a process engineer in  an edible oil company in Pasir Gudang.

Recently, she successfully completed her Ph.D (Chemical Engineering) with minor correction, well actually most of them are just formatting errors. I must say that her thesis and research is very impressive.

While we were undergraduates

Since we’ve known each other more than 12 years ago, I always see her as a genius person. That is one of the most important trait that she has. She study less but she can pick-up very fast without any effort. On the other hand, I studied harder than her because I’m not that clever or brilliant as her or the other students. I need to put more effort to succeed in whatever I do and whatever I learned. That is my key to success >>> Work Hard. I will read wherever I am, even at the bus stop while waiting for my school bus or while stopping at the traffic light in my car. I don’t like to waste the precious time just like that.

Work

Both of us have a good career, I thank God for that. As some of you know, I’m currently doing my Ph.D and I’m in my 3rd semester. In the university, I will at most of the time be in the lab, working on my research. My wife, in the other hand has more jobs to do. She has to teach (lecture), supervise research students under her, write and publish papers, think of her research, coordinate and manage her consultancy Environmental Impact Assessment (EIA) work and much more. In addition to that, her English is so good that she also do proof reading and editing services which focuses on chemical engineering thesis and technical papers. You know what… I’m really impressed in how she managed to do all of those work, calmly. It’s really amazing!

Home

At home, it’s a different story. As soon as we reached home, I will normally relax, rest, watch TV, tease my kids or do my online activity. On the other hand my wife will change her attire and go straight to the kitchen to cook for us. During this fasting month, I prefer eating at home rather than buying from bazar Ramadhan or eating out at any Ramadhan Buffet. While I rest, she still work, but now she work in the kitchen, with our maid assisting.

Later at night, she will check our kids homework and revision. My kids prefer to refer to her rather than me. I don’t know why? Am I that fierce?

Superwoman

Do I consider her a superwoman? Yes, definitely. She is more excellent than me at work. Of course, I have a different set of experience because I have been working as an engineer for almost 6 years. That’s a different story. But now, I’m starting my career as an academician and I’m catching up with her. Once she is assigned a task or a project, she will be laser focused to complete it as soon as possible. Yep…she’s very focus. That’s one thing that I need to learn and master from her. I need that to be successful in my career and my online business.

Before I end this entry and break fast in a matter of minutes, I would like to say to my wife that I appreciate her being part of my life. All of us love and embrace you. You are such a great person, wife and mother. Thanks for everything, my dear…

Oh yea… before I forget.. Thanks for cooking chicken rendang for me… hehe

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This is a very interesting topic, for me. Why?

Because, I think I’m pushing myself too much! I’m pushing myself too much that although my heart can tolerate, my eyes cannot anymore. My present work requires me to write a technical paper about my research work and to submit it to a very high quality journal with high impact factor. I have not done that before, but I’m trying my best now to accomplish that. After I completed this technical paper and hopefully managed to get it published, I’m going to carry on working on my next technical paper which I plan to cover about the thermodynamic feasibility of my process. That is not easy… I need to study a software and use it to simulate a modeling of the reaction processes in my reactor. Oh God…. it’s so tough that sometimes I feel like vomiting and just sleep. And after that, I need to write 3 more papers as I proposed in my research proposal. Being able to at least published 3 technical papers in quality high impact factor journal means Ph.D is (halfway) inside my hand. Oh God… please help me and give me the power and strength…

My wife always say that I push myself too much! Is that so? Am I like that? I just want to get this Ph.D study of mine settled once and for all. I don’t want to delay and drag it any longer. I’m too old already to be a student. Am I?

When I try to continue this work at home, I can’t. I lose to the battle. The battle of my interest at home which is pursuing my online ambition. I have no motivational problem on that. It’s fun and I feel great enhancing my technical knowledge on the engineering part of the search engine. Plus I need to spend time with my kids…

So what now?

I need to stay focus and focus… to complete my Ph.D… as soon as possible. It’s a personal challenge. I need to work smart and hard.

The same goes to all of you. Stay focus in whatever you are doing to succeed with flying colours…

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At the same time, I was elected as the president of Post Graduate Society at my faculty. Wow…another big task and responsibility for me. In my research group, I’m responsible for a few things as well. I run a homestay business with my wife and colleague, which is quite profitable.

My task as a researcher/students occasionally demands me to continue my job at home. That’s the problem!!!

I always bring back my work to home but the problem is I CANNOT do them at home.

Why?

Because, no matter how… I can’t focus on those job at home because my mind and heart will only drive me to my blogs and internet / online activities. For instance, I have to correct and improve my ph.d proposal that I need to submit tomorrow, but I can’t find the strength and the will power to do it. I’ll lose the battle at home… I’ll lose to the desire of creating and establishing my online empire.

Are you facing the same thing? Same problem? Please help me…

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Sometime in this life we have to make some sacrifices. That is life. I’m very grateful to have one happy family. I’m blessed with a great job and the opportunity to further my study in the highest level. What else can I ask more?

I realized I have earlier mentioned about arranging my online activities. But then, I also realize that, I need to prioritize my time with my kids, especially to monitor their studies.

Ikhwan, my active eldest son, is in standard one and require serious attention from us (the parents). He likes to play and go to school. But when it comes to doing homework and studying, he needs somebody to motivate him. That’s when we come in. I’m now committed in spending 1-2 hours every night to ensure he can perform in his study, especially in reading Malaysian and English language, jawi and mathematics. I hope we can prepare him well enough before the final examination next month. We want to see him improve his grade in his examination in both his official school and religious school.

Marsya, 5, our expressive first daughter is very diligent and require less attention in terms of her studies. She’s doing very well in her pre-school and we are trying to bring her up to another level. The only thing is her mood which is sometimes unpredictably annoying.

Alya, 3+, our charming third child, is still very small. We don’t really expect her to study seriously for the time being. We want her to have her own sweet and fun time studying at school.

That’s the current sacrifice I have to make. Maybe I cannot call it sacrifice, but rather define it as responsibility. Before this, I have not really paid sufficient attention to their studies. After work, at night, I only focus on my online activities. But, their future is very important and precious to us. We don’t want to gamble their future. We want the best for them. We want them to excel academically and morally and grow up to be good people with great career. We have to do our best to provide them with the best education and support plus motivation + love.

That’s it. I’ll reduce my online time in order to ensure my kids are doing well. I have to re-arrange my strategy because I have to spend more time thinking and running my ph.d research too.

Oh gosh… when can I relax???

My online time will be roughly around 1 hour every night, I’m guessing… And I must proportion it finely to do all the blogging, affiliate, article marketing, SEO, and other making money online duties…

Please, I seek other almost similar parents to share your experiences with me…

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